Things Happen For A Reason?

Today makes one week ago since I went to a friend's baby's funeral. His name was William and he was beautiful. He lived to be about one month and three weeks. I only got to meet him once but that was all it took for me to fall in love. I never cried at funeral before, I've only been to five in my life well six now.I had never been to an infants before maybe that's why I kept finding myself crying not just for William and all his infinite possibilities now gone but for the pain that I felt my friend going through.

People of faith say that everything happens for a reason but I can't seem to wrap my mind around a reason for his death. I mean yeah he gave me a better appreciation for my own children I won't take them for granted but that can't be one of the reasons for his time here because it's not about me. I've wracked my brain for something to give meaning to his death but I haven't been able to come up with anything. I just don't understand. I suppose I never will.

I'm not into church or anything, sure I believe that there's some higher power or whatever but I have no real faith in the bible because it was written by "man" and put together by the church, which in mankinds past has used it and "God" to try and control people. So many evil things have been done in the name of God in the past and even now that I just can't place my faith in something that has been so corrupted and twisted by mankind I just can't do it. Well now I'm just ranting.

Anyway this childs death really slammed my own mortality home to me. Its kinda scary to think my or one of my loved ones life could just end one day for no reason.I find it hard to accept.

At the veiwing William looked like he was sleeping but when I got closer I didn't feel him there and then I realised he wasn't in that body anymore which was comforting in a way. Then I found myself wondering why are we crying? He's not here he's somewhere else. He isn't gone I don't know where he went but he's definately not in this room. But I didn't say anything to anyone, I didn't want to upset anyone plus they probably would have thought I was crazy. Hell it sounds crazy to me but thats how I felt and my feelings weren't right or wrong they were just feelings it's how I act on those feelings that would make them right or wrong. Thank goodness I managed to keep my big mouth shut (which is not as easy as it would seem to be I tend to be a blurter)

The universe works in ways that are beyond me. And everything happens for a reason is sometimes maybe the cruel side of nature just reminding us that we are only humans and have a limmited time on this earth so we better cherish the time we have here with each other. Or at least that's what I'm gonna tell myself.

Lesson Learned: Never Take Life, Your Own Or Anyone Else's Life for Granted.